4_3va iN p@in

sat nite and yesterday the things tat i most worried has happened.. i c it with my own eyes.. i now i knew wad is pain.. its so hurt until my tears keep dripping.. i really hate tat feeling.. i feel so lost.. everything is jz like end of the world.. bt no matter wad i have too stand up strong.. i cannot colapse so easily.. i will continue fight for it!! even though my life now has no more hapiness bt i will try my best to get it bck.. i really wan to thnx alot to all my frenz for supporting me.. without u all i duno wad will happen to me now.. i really feel touch by all ur supports!! thnx.. i will always be str0ng and gambateh!!

new n3w new!!!

hmmm... i was trying to login to my old blog bt appears i forgot my pass and so on.. so decide to start a new blog.. act first i wan to start a new blog is nt jz bcz i forgot my old blog pass~ its actually aso bcz recently i have let go everything and decide to start a new lifestyle and new me~ i believe by starting it i should let go all my old thinking and aso story.. past is the past.. hopefully things will be better after all tis..

finally if nt wrong sum of my prob had been able to be solve already.. so im nt that stressful anymore bt... i still haven really begin my new life.. my new life will be goin bck to ktn.. sound gd.. bt i have to handle my princess to him bcz i have no strenght to take care her.. bt i will everyday go n visit her.. i will be there alone.. staying bck at my old condo.. guess.. tis time i really have to be on my own.. i have cfm a job bck in ktn.. they gv very gd salary.. bt i need to work hard.. so hopefully things will go better so on..


for now i have plan to let go the hope of being together with my husband.. bt i will still love him.. i will change my self and try to touch his heart.. i wan him to love me with his true heart.. tis is the only way to have a happy family.. so i will try hard to change my self.. the crazy and wild vanessa have to dissapear and bcum a gd vanessa..to bcum a gd vanessa first i need to quit these:

*no more clubbing!!
*no more over friendly action!
*no more jealousy!!
*no more bad tempered!!

and to be a gd vanessa i must be:

#be patient
#a good mom
#a good wife
#never be jealous easily
#no vuglar
#gd temper
#humour
#always smile
#loyal to love

hopefully i will success to be a better person..
now my first step is be responsible to all the mistake i have done!!
wish me all the best..

~baby min~