th3 d@y N t1m3 i dr3am t0 happ3n

came bck to ktn to accompany my husband..lately he treat me very nice.. he care and gv me his love.. although he do sumtimes make me angry and sad by saying his xgf matter... cz im a sensitive and easy jealous d person.. so everytime whn he say bout her i will get piss off!! bt i noe its over then its over.. bt sumtimes he keep on say were frenz only.. i really feel confuse.. i dun noe he actually want to be with me or wad.. bt he treat me jz like hw he treat a gf.. i really confuse lo.. bt i dun mind as long as he love me who am i to him i aso nvm la.. for me a status is nt important most important is i can be with the one who i love and gv my baby a happy family.. tats the most important things in my life..^^ bt i wonder hw long will all tis last?? a things tat i nvr tot will possible happen again had jz happen.. well will tis be a things tat i never tot will last forever will last forever?? i duno la.. now all i can do is appreciate all our moment together and being loyal to each other while were still together... i hope my daughter can be here together with us.. being 1 happy family.. i really miss my baby so much!! i wonder hw is she doin... hopefully next week i can c her!! me n hubby aso miss her alot.. i guess now both of us aso noe wad is a parent responsible.. hope our effort can bring a happy family to baby meiko!!

today i woke at 12 smtg.. hubby woke at 7smtg.. he went for fishing b4 he left h gave a kiss.. its so sweet of him...^^after wake up whn for a bath den go saloon for a hair wash.. haha!! so waste of money.. bt wad to do no hair dryer.. i dwan go out with a sakai hair style.. haha.. den came bck.. den not long after resting went out wif lee lian and few others.. go seng kong yam cha.. chit chat awhile.. den bck home wait for hubby to come bck.. around 6 smtg hubby came home.. we watch tv together... so long no watch tv together and aso watch tv.. since i start staying alone i seldom watch tv.. bcz most of my time i aso go out wif frenz.. den after stay at kl aso no time watch and no tv watch.. haha!! den after tat whn for candle dinner with hubby.. sooo romantic.. haha!!! bt actually is bcz no electric tats y so romantic...then after dinner.. came bck home.. cz both of us aso very tired.. now im updating my blog and listen music haha!! i know i didnt update my blog lately.. bcz im busy and a bit lazy.. haha!! well hope u guys enjoy wit my new updates and feel happy reading it..^^

#baby min#

520 我爱你！

today is 20/5/2010 it mean 520 in chinese mean 我爱你 i love u.. today wake up call guo en.. discuss bout starting a business.. haha!! chat chat den i sudd wish him happy 520.. den i write at his fb wall post.. i ask his permission b4.. he was ok.. actually i think he tot today is our marriage 3rd anniversary.. bcz he say its a special day...lucky he din forget.. haha!! he ask me to go out and have dinner on tat day.. so sunday i wil be goin bck to c weather he really meant it ant.. haha!! well everything is past bt he still remember i guess he still have the heart gua..^^

today went to sunway with doreen and eric.. my touch n go kena blacklist lolx.. haha!! we shop around went to get sum stationary and college use d stuffy.. den walk walk walk... den go have dinner den go find doreen frenz.. around 8pm jonathan came to fetch us to kelana jaya to go on lrt to go bck to wangsa maju.. reach home around 9 smtg.. den check on fb.. haiz.. whn check fb straight away sienz.. i really duno wad is so nice to jealous about.. i only write 2010.05.20 only ma.. since today is a special day ma.. den gt ppl go trash talk me at fb.. wad a childish way.. summore say wan to slap me.. really speechless lo.. like tat aso wan slap ppl.. haiz.. now a days d girl.. a bit only already wan whack ppl.. no eye c.. haiz.. summore wan say me if gt anything nt sastified go find her face to face.. now is who trash talk and backstab ppl?? i really speechless... haiz.. if u really wan beat me come beat la.. i din do anything wrong.. u wan hw den hw.. dun trash talk me can d.. i gt my own image pls dun ruin it.. i wont go and ruin ur relationship.. dun wry wor.. i really wish u wan wor.. if i wan ruin early aso ruined d la.. =.=''

today a person tat been dissapear for almost a year plus sudd appear at fb.. guess who.. he is the one i use to go crazy off and love alot!! i think sum of u noe who.. haha!! i dwan to write out here.. let u all guess.. he msg me at fb.. asking me hw am i.. and den he unblocked me at his msn haha!! we chat and webcam almost the whole nite.. he look so handsome.. still the same.. no changes.. haha.. well we chat alot of things la.. bt i can c he really let go everything already.. im happy for him.. the most funny thing is his eng is sooo deep.. and my eng sooo poor.. haha... he was so nt use to it.. cz last time my english was quite okay.. haha!! well.. i duno weather he is single or nt la.. bt i knew is he smoke alot!! we webcam nt even an hour he already smoke 3 times.. omg!! tis fella is a smoker freak!! really wad gd boy image aso no more d.. haha... bt smtg is a bit diff.. i duno wad izit.. bt i feel smtg weird.. well felt happy were frenz bck.. well im here to wish him all the best tho.. hope he will have a gd gf in the future... he is no more youngster.. he is turning 22th.. haha...

now im still dl all my lecture notes and tutorial... tmr morning 8am gt class till 11pm.. i wonder hw is the lecture.. i hope wont be like QS lecturer again!! if like tat lecture i really will die!!
wish me tmr gd luck will get a gd lecturer..^^

#baby min#

w0rst Day 3ver...

today wake at 9 smtg bath and get ready den go college... reach early today.. today lecture is qs (quantitative studies) the lecturer has a very annoying habit... he love to swallow saliva whn giving lecture.. haha!! the worst part he love to explain long long den in the end say tis u no need to take note cZ its out of the syllabus.. lolx!! i was like!! wad?? i copy down d u say no need..=.='' really sucks lo.. den whn he ask us to take note he go and take away the slide.. really duno wad tis stupid lecture wan lo!! beh tahan!!

after lecture came bck.. den on9 awhile do sum chores den go take nap.. wake up go jusco to get some grocery.. den went dinner with frenz.. the most worst is i have to pay rm50 for ntg.. my fren car get lock at my apartment.. bt im the one who have to pay.. bcz she say she no money.. wtf?? u can buy branded stuff bt u no money pay... speechless..

now i left rm20 bucks.. i really duno wan hw to go on lo.. still gt 4 days more only gt money.. haiz.. really die dis time.. shit!!

#baby min#

f1rst Day of coll3ge...

today first day of college.. went for IA lectures.. i was late for it.. haha!! first bad image.. whn went in i was soooo blur.. the lecture speak like machine gun only.. i dun even understand.. bt luckily in the end i still manage to understand.. well today d class ok ok la.. hope tat i can cope with it... actually i was thinking to leave here and go other place bcz of sum reason.. bt i think properly.. i did nt do anyhting wrong.. y should i avoid her?? y am i so afraid of facing her?? so i decide nt to change bt face it.. if realy cant stand only transfer.. today i keep on think bout him.. im such a fool.. haiz.. ppl dwan me bt stil think bout him.. damn stupid..

today bck from college took a rest den settle some work things.. den cook maggi for my breakfast,lunch and dinner.. haha!! 3 in 1.. gd rite?? lolx.. den went for a nap.. sudd he call me.. he scold me bout my blog.. cz i scolded sum1.. my heart was so pain.. i dun understand.. i know he love her and precious her.. bt hw say im aso a girl i aso have feeling and image.. dint he think bout it?? i really dissapointed once and once he fall to my trap.. he really let me c his real person.. i really speechless.. bt nvm.. i can take tis as a lesson.. i aso need to thanks to him.. in the future i will surely becarefull..

jz now there was a photography agency msg me.. offering me weather interested to be a photo shoot model ant.. i was so shock!! cz im so short and nt photogenic aso gt ppl interested.. bt i think i wan to pay attn on my study so i push away their offer.. hope i wont regret.. haha!! cz i noe taking tis offer i can earn money.. bt i think study is more important la.. so hope tat next time in the future i can get sum job tat is smtg like tat..

now im doin my tutorial work and notes.. omg!! first day already so many things.. really siao lo.. haha!! hope tat i can chase everything.. hehe!! so tats all for today.. now need continue my work..^^

#baby min#

Fin@llY!!

today finally i went to shopping with my frenz... its been so long i didnt go to time square or sungei wang.. its almost 3 years.. after i was pragnent i didnt went to kl already.. everyday at ktn only.. feel so enjoy.. bt my purse really bleeding.. today budget were suppose to be rm50 bt end up rm100.. bought a pair of shoes and some clothes.. i aso bought touch n go for convenience.. touch n go cost me rm30.. then i paid for the rental rm87.50 i took rm300 now left rm90 only.. so cham ar!! really pokai.. tmr need buy table summore.. really cham ar!!! duno wan hw survive still gt soooo many days.. plus my salary aso haven out.. summore need to clear all the money i owe my fren.. headache la!! really use to much!! T.T

today is the first day my bf didnt find me.. i guess wad i did its too over.. i guess i have hurt him deeply.. hope he is ok with it.. bcz i really cant accept a new relationship yet.. bt i duno hw to let go him.. cz he treat me very nice.. bt hope tAT he will found a better one.. bcz i knew tat im nt a really gd gf.. i guess he stop finding me is smtg gd la.. well my class gonna start tis monday i guess love and romance all tis i will put aside.. include my ex husband.. i admit i still love him.. bt i think 50% me n him is impossible already..bcz his heart is no more belongs to me.. well being single maybe will be smtg gd la.. all i need to do is b strong.. try to be discipline.. if nt happy then find frenz.. i have many frenz tat always stand by my side support me..^^

well im quite tired now.. hopefully tmr wake up d my day will be better..^^

#baby min#

b@ck in kL..

went bck to ktn last tues day for two days to settle my job.. last nite came bck to kl.. bcz those days in ktn were so suffer... problems keep on pouring in.. im so sick of trouble and problem.. last nite after bck at kl my stresses and annoyed has all gone.. feel so relax now.. i guess i really need sum time to cool down.. maybe leaving ktn and go for studies is a gd.. at least i have sum space to nt to think of him.. well.. today wake at 12 smtg.. so long didnt sleep till so late d lo.. haha.. now at home fat mou.. frenz all go shopping liao left me alone!! T.T hope later can go get my things la.. my stupid handbag spoil again d.. i really lost trust with vincci d.. their bag quality is getting worse!! omg!! ltr gotta go settle it and get a new bag.. ^^

b3ginn1ng

yesterday was the first day of orientation.. meet sum new frenz and old frenz... the place was so crowded... my college was like soooo huge... i walk until leg aso wan break d.. crazy.. and tis college were suppose to be banned wearing short pants or sexy clothing.. bt whn i went there those student were wearing all those clothing tat were band... tis prove college rules are useless... haha!! i went for the orientation awhile den i went off after half an hour.. cz it was soooo lame... so went to settle my admission and make my student id.. i went to took a passport photo to make sure my student id have a nice photo bt nvr tot they use those cam and take and straight away done.. i so regreted!! cz i was whole body sweating and my hair was so fugly and i was wearing their stupid clothes!! plus i tied up my hair!! my face look like a big head girl!! sooooo fugly!! so i was thinking to report lost and make a new one.. cz its tooo fugly to bring around.. after tat worst nightmare li hao bring me to c pv and metroview.. den went to mcd for brunch and tea.. den go bck home.. the college were like spa only!! my whole body sweating until like bathing.. so came bck take a rest den bath den waited kenny.. he took me and his bro to jusco to get some grocery den went to pj for dinner and went to get bus ticket.. so came bck around 10smtg lo... chit chat around wif housemates till 3am!!! haha.. den sleep... ^^tats my first day of kl life..

#baby m1n#

th3 n3w st@ge of My lif3

tmr will be my first day being at college... today move in to my new room.. meet few new housemate shin,jit seng,dora, and chris... all of them are very nice.. im currently renting a room at alpha.. the enviroment is nt gd as hw i expect bt still ok la.. haha... at least i have a nice housemates.. today went to carefour with my roommate vivian to get sum dairy use things and aso bed.. spend alotz!! now pokai liao.. aso duno wan hw to go through tmr and day after.. cham cham really cham...

the last few days b4 i leave i cant believe he accompany almost 24 hour everyday...i tot there is hope.. hw noe everything tat happen is no more happening.. now wad is left is memories and pain... nvr tot i fall for it again.. im such a fool.. bt i feel his sincere.. im so confuse.. i dont noe wad i should do.. i really like those feelings.. bt now it will nvr happen again.. cz its nt true.. he is jz only giving me a sweet memories b4 i leaving i guess..

anyway time pass days and life still go on.. no point looking bck.. bt i still always look bck.. it is so hard to control ur feelings.. i really hope i can be strong and keep on look forward and stop hoping bout smtg in the past to come bck.. hopefully i can go through.. now im goin to a new stage of my life tat is college life.. i hope i dun have to bring my past with me... i jz wan a happy life.. bt i still hope tat i can have a future wif him.. i dont know y ive been hurt so deeply by him bt i still want him so much am i a fool?? i guess so.. well hopefully in the future things will go as hw i plan.. ^^

may god bless me...

#baby m1n#