对你真的很失望！

我很佩服！你和每一个女生分手都说一样的东西~你很伟大！！太感动了！你每一个女生都那么爱的~每一个女生你都不像分手的~每一个女生和你都不快乐的`~没个女生都和你在一起时没有结果的`~那你和妖怪在一起吧！真不好意思当了你们的第三者~不知道还有多少个女生还要被你伤害~看来要改变的是你吧？有问题的是你吧？你这一些男生不死也没用~为什么该死的不死不该死的死了~天真的没眼~都不懂我喜欢你什么？被你伤害了一次又一次可是还是得那么喜欢你~看来我是最笨的女生~

j3njaRom my l0v3ly grAndp@r3ntS h0m3towN

jenjarom is a small area nearby banting also near dong zen a famous temple. my grandparents both aso from here.. today is my uncle wedding.. so i came down to attend his wedding he is 50 years old already.. haha!! old rite?? well every1 was so happy about it.. almost most of the relative aso attend the wedding.. well i took an opportunity to know my relative more well... whn i reach i was totally a stranger lo.. haha.. luckily my aunt drag me in and intro me to all my cousin.. haha!!! so i wont be lonely.. haha.. so hang out with them.. we went shopping and so on.. we also played lami.. haha!! well my luck is nt that good so i lose alot!!! pk d.. haiz.. bt at least i enjoy lo.. i came here i eat alot.. so many things to eat!! got many seafood and singapore food.. bcz my aunt from singapore brought back for us.. i took loads of photo.. will upload in the next post.. bcz tmr still gt.. my uncle threw a very simple wedding.. no tea ceremony.. he threw a small lunch only and a buffet at night.. hmmm im very tired.. so will update tmr.. stay to cont tmr yar.. will share all the time at hometown..^^ nite every1!!

xoxo
babymin

ｎｏｖ３ｍｂｅｒ！！！ ｆ１ｎａＬｌｙ ｉｔＳ ｈ３ｒｅ！！！

ｉｍ　ｓｏ　ｈａｐｐｙ！！！　ｂｃｚ　ｉｍ　ａ　ｎｏｖｅｍｂｅｒ　ｂａｂｙ！！！　ｇｏｓｈ！！！　ｌｏｖｅ　　ｉｔ　ｓｏｏｏｏ　ｍｕｃｈ．．　ｈｅｈｅ．．　ｔｈｅ　ｍｏｎｔｈ　ｉｖｅ　ｂｅｅｎ　ｗａｉｔｉｎｇ　ａｌｌ　ｙｅａｒ　ｆｉｎａｌｌｙ　ｒｅａｃｈ！！！　ｗｅｅｅ．．．．．　ｓｏ　ｈａｐｐｙ！！！

tis year i will be having a small party at my aunt place.. will invite sum close fren.. im still busying with the guest list... there are another two weeks from today... excited!!! hehe... feel happy that my husband took out his willingness to attend my party.. feel so happy about it.. tis birthday i hope will be a unforgetable bufdae.. first im turning 18!! yay!!! haha.. im finally legal for clubbing!! i can go in with showing my ic without worry.. wakaka!!! tis year bufdae im getting an iphone4.. yeah.. haha!!! iphone4 smtg fun for me.. hehe...

well lately ive been hanging out with my bestie tan cheryl leng zai.. haha!!! she soo leng zai and so pretty.. especially her eye.. really very easy can get sotz lo.. haha!! so to the guys out there whn go out dun c her eye.. me a girl aso kena.. if boy lagi teruk.. haha!! lolx.. (joking) p/s: cheryl dun angry yar.. joking nia.. haha!!!

last sat me n amy n cheryl and vincent and mr zi lian liang soon.. ahaha!! we went to simple to eat nasi lemak cz cheryl hungry.. then whn eating we chat bout my aunt bistro.. so decide to drop by since its jz few walks... 'i think' haha... gt go d will sure noe the few walk is hw few.. actually we come out is to celebrate vincent birthday... so i hope he is happy tat day.. haha.. bt i think we no go out he aso will very happy.. cz sum reason.. first is he gt his iphone4.. haha.. 2nd is sum reason lo.. hahaz.. well a bit pai seh no gv dao present bt at least brought him to eat smtg he nvr eat b4... haha.. and i think he is happy.. haha..
here sum photo of that day...


i know all my kl frenz miss me alot.. well here is a gd news. im goin down to kl on da 11th until 14th.. i will be celebrating my bufdae there.. so hope all of u are free for me.. hehe... bt on the 13th i will be busy cz i have relatives wedding dinner to attend.. it will be a short trip.. but i hope it will be a happy and memorable nov kl trip.. hehe... i will go bck to hq aso so my time will be kinda packed.. bt no worry clubbing u can include me.. i sure ok.. haha!!! hope to c u all soon.. miss all of u!!

well i guess im gonna stop here.. miss all of u.. and since its deepavali.. so happy deepavali to all my indian friends.. and to who ever is celebrating deepavali out there.. HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!!

xoxo
babymin

tiPsY b!tsY of wHat Im d0iN!!

hmm... off day for two days.. tmr is bonuslink 5x bonus and double voucher day.. hopefully i will get more komisen.. wish me all the best.. last tuesday i working.. my target are rm875.. i work here 3 times nt once target hitted or open bill.. tat day b4 i start my work i wipe the whole counter and ask bless from god.. surprisingly with all the effort i finally hit my target.. on tat day i open rm903 bill.. from tat day i believe god blessing.. even whn promotion at sogo i did the same thing and i aso hit my target.. this is y u must always believing in god.. he will always be there for u whn u believe in him.. whn u ask for his help u must believe in him..


a pic of me in my new uniform and at my new counter in ktn..

last tues i went out for tea with cheryl after work.. i nvr tot tat there are frens who really cares about me.. alots of my fren stand out to help me and listen to my complaint... im so happy.. everytime im sad they will be there to hear my complaint... thankx for all of u d advice... cheryl,vincent,amy,leong kiat, waie, roy my ktn frenx... pei yee, bee go, ah tip and shee gee plus ah boon my kl bestest buddy and sisters plus housemates.. staying with them let me feel family feelings.. miss them so much...
u all is my bestest frenx of all!! thnx alot for supporting me. well act i kinda miss my college mates.. especially 1 dbu 2 and gym frenz... hope to have a gathering with all of u whn i bck kl.. all of u i say about here i miss u all the most!!! u all means alot to me.. without all of u d support i would nt be here now..！！


these few days is really challenging for me.. a girl who is use to trust alot now finally has bcum a bitches.. i cant believe.. really dissapointed on her.. she is such a pervert.. i cant believe my eye.. anyway like my fren advice nvr let a bi**ch to ruin ur mood and life.. so i will take her invisible..

well lately my so call husband.. i aso duno la.. he been always smsing and talking on the fon with sum1!! well i feel so heart pain.. bt wad can i do?? she is soo important to him.. plus all she wan is me to be sad.. i dont really und wad she wan.. bt i only noe she is a total lier.. tats all.. anyway thats their prob.. i have no right to care.. all i can hope is she can gv bck my husband and my family to me.. i would appreciatte it alotx..

well its dinner time.. and im sooo hungry.. so gonna stop here.. hope all of u have a nice day...

baby min
xoxo

new lif3, n3w me, n3w sTyl3!!

today will be my first day of my diet.. hopefully i will manage to get a nice body whn it reach my bufdae!!! hehe.. alot of efforts needed cz i wanna change from 50kg to 45kg if i sucess then cont on till 40kg!! wish me all the best..

i have move bck to ktn... im currently staying at my husband i think.. duno.. haven have a clear about our relationship.. i guess for now is frens la.. i aso blurr.. anyway im now working at megamall parkson clinique counter. the sales here is nt as gd as i expext. here i gt my fisrt egg bill(no bill at all) haiz.. my rm1k salary like that fly away d.. cz i count im suppose to have rm1k of salary tis month.. bt sadly bcz of the quiet enviroment my salary very little.. hoepfully next month business will be better. on the 29th oct were having a sale. its a bonuslink 5 time bonus, hopefully that day will have many customer la.. pray god!! im currently missing a lot my kl life and frenz.. after i came bck i nvr really laugh alot and be my self.. because here what ever i do i have to think twice and no one would bother bout me.. bck here im all on my own.. no caring and no ppl to laugh with.. its kinda lonely life.. bt hopefully whn time pass things will get better here..

well since im working as partimer here i will be very free.. so i will be updating my blog as frequent as i can.. so pls feel free to update bout my life here.. and pls gv sum comment if u have any opinion.. im always ready to receive advice from my frenz..


baby min
xoxo

我要快乐！我要我的空间！

让我自己快乐有错吗？难道我要快乐是错吗？我已经那么就没有那么开心过了！我这几天好难得开开心心你就不可以不要让我伤心吗？我明天就回了~我还没有回你已经这样了！那我会去了不是更加不开心？我这几天都有做工只是昨晚了才和朋友去起~ 你可以和你的朋友去起难道我就不可以吗？有时你说你不需要我现在又生气我没有回刘在这里玩我真不明白你想要的是什么！！！！

为什么？我真的不明白！！！

为什么？？为什么我回去又要过那些生活？？难道我要开开心心得过生活都不能吗？为什么每次我回去都要过辛苦的生活？？我真不知道我该作什么好？我只是要开心~ 有那么辛苦吗？我不要过吃醋的生活~你明知道的可是你还是要这样来对我~你这样的对我你的心里会好过吗？？看到我伤心和心痛的日子你很开心吗？希望我回去了一段时间你会放开他~

borink borink borink.....

start from yesterday i was off... need wait until 17 only gt job.. so tis few days go out waste money.. bt the problem is i no money.. haha! im very very poor now.. i over spend tis month.. bt lucky my salary haven out.. haha!!! salary out le den im safe.. bt i still need to use my salary to cover my old sum.. die die die.. i really a big spender.. need to control alot d!!! aik..haha... hmmm... another few days.. tat is 21st i will be bck at hometown... haha!!! im bck to celebrate baby mieko birthday and mooncake festive... bt hor!! 21st i need to attend a gym gathering at sunway.. hw hw hw?? aikz.. duno can rush ant.. cham!!!! well.. tis few days ive been running around mid valley and times square repeatedly... im so sick of mid valley n times square d..hmmm... for today i still dont know the plan.. aikz.. bt sure will get contact lenses.. my eye sight is getting blur... ish.. haha!!!


p/s: i cut my fringe!!!! omg!!! haha....


babymin
xoxo

time tooo updat3... hehe..

its been a long time i din update my blog le.. haha.. my fren all aso no update le.. im jz like totally living in my own world.. well i have quit my studies.. lately im bz working and attending training.. well many things happen lately.. i will nt be able to write all out.. will write few of its summary la.. haha!!!


well now im clinique consultant i already work for them for one month plus.. im asking for a transferring bck to ktn.. cz im planning to go bck ktn and stay wif my hubby.. i learn to control my self i went bck for few time in long term.. do happen unhappy things bt i manage to control my emotion so i think if i move bck it would nt be a prob... plus my baby need me now.. so i must be by her side..

i went for interview at clinique hq and they dun seems to allowed me to go bck.. they wan me to stay at kl as a part timer.. bt really cant.. i need to go back ktn cz kl expenses is too high i cant afford it.. im currently working at few counter.. so always run here and there..

well these days many unhappy things happen i gt rob.. everything gone.. and now i no fon use aso.. aiz.. in a sudden soo many things happen aiyaya!! i aso duno wad to say..

all i can say hope in fututre things will be better la.

now im attending a 5 days training hope after tis train i can conquer all the products..^^

baby min
x0x0

suff3r...!!!

last thursday i did the most stupid thing ever.. bt its nt wad i wan.. i guess im jz too emotional.. i saw my husband profile picture.. he put he and a ex gf he love alot and change his status to 'in a relationship' my tears keep on drip and my heart was so pain.. i call him and beg him to accept me and nt leave me.. bt he say everything is over le.. its too late.. he shut my call i was so emotional and sad.. i does nt noe wat to do?? i jz cant think anything.. my mind was totally blur.. i was over depress..i did smtg childish.. lucky my housemates manage to notice my wrist its bleeding.. if nt i wont noe wad happen.. i guess god still want me here..well i still cant let it go.. bt im trying my best to c thing the other way.. i really hope miracle will happen one day..

h@ppy 0r SaD??

today is the 2nd day i didnt talk to my husband.. he is my ex husband or husband?? i aso duno.. haiz... i seriously love him alot now.. i try so hard to let go him bt i still cant.. i try to love another person i fail.. i try to stop thinking of him aso fail.. i duno wad else i can do to let him go.. i now understand y he feel tat im annoying.. i guess i to stick to him, i keep on wry him and find him.. i love him too much and he dun even love me.. tat is y he feel im annoyed.. i wonder whn only he will accept me bck?? izit possible?? i really duno.. everyday i at there waiting him.. my fren all scold me say im a fool keep on wait him.. eventhough i already knew its impossible bt i still want him.. am i stupid or wad?? im jz lying my self i guess.. hmmm.. hopefully miracle will happen la..

bck to my life at kl.. now a days im having exam and presentation and need rush assignment..i have done my HE assignment. now left IA and english.. next week thursday is my presentation. gt bit excited bt aso gt bit wry cz its my first time.. duno hw will it goes.. presentation sure mean formal.. so i have to wear formal and high heels for the whole day next thursday!! from 8.00am till 5.30pm.. die die die!! my leg sure pain like shit.. haiz.. T.T

today is wednesday mean is gym day.. haha!! today is my elbow bridge test.. b4 test my coach gv us sum briefing about the next test tat is sit up and push up test.. push up was the hardest thing for me.. i think i will surely fail the test.. we need to get 50 times to pass.. sure die!! i only manage 10 times.. so big diff.. for sit up aso 50 times.. lucky i can do around 20.. so need to practice now so i can pass my cocu course.. haha!! today elbow bridge test i manage to stand for 1 minutes and 15 second!! i gt 5 marks.. bt only on more second i can get 6 marks!! so angry!! i didnt stand a little longer.. arggghh!!one more thing today i brw my coursemate umbrella cz it was raining like cats and dog.. i put the umbrella on top of my locker and after gym come out umbrella lost!! omg!! umbrella le.. summore is old old wan!! aso gt ppl wan steal.. really no eye c lo.. haiz.. so i have to replace one to nav tmr..

today i at gym class knew a group of student from johor.. they r very friendly i knew 5 of them.. nika,jin he,kelvin,pei hsia and sherlyn.. there are 1 special thing bout them is the boys cook for the girls.. haha!!! now a days d guy really diff d.. haha!!! they were so nice that they invited me to join them for dinner.. bt i din went today.. hopefully i can join them next time..^^

i really thankx god that in moment that i really needs fren he send them to me..
i guess god really love me and wants me to appreciatte my self more and nt wasting my time dripping tears bcz of my husbad.. i will appreciate my friendship and nvr let them down.. i guess my fren willl be the best medicine to stop thinking of him.. hopefully i can get over tis two weeks not finding him.. i hope after tis two weeks he will nt be angry at me already and treating me same like last time.. seriously i really miss him.. i miss his smile and his hugs sooo much..T.T

str3ss3s is h3re to v1sit m3 ag@in^^

this is the fourth week of my 1st semester, next week is the fifth week. this mean i have to pass up my HE(hubungan etnik) coursework and my ME (microeconomic) is gonna have a exam next week. the problem is HE i haven settle my coursework!! the worst first week until noe i dun even understand even a bit about my ME subject!! now i have to chase all subject cz nt even one subject i understand.. luckily IA(introduction of accounting) i start to understand a bit le!! haha.. cant believe rite?? form 5 im economic and account student bt my weakness is this two subject^^ hopefully i can manage to catch back everything after putting effort in it.. i would nt wan to retake the whole semester again!! wish me all the best^^

yesterday went for gym. yesterday was a hectic day. went around with filthy wet clothes because its raining like cats and dogs summore no umbrella im so genius rite?? haha!! the rain start whn my gym almost ended!! i have to go to citc and they have no shade until citc! so it mean i have to go under the rain. went for lunch with kenny around 1 smtg. then went to skol at 2pm for gym. whn reach gym the first thing we do is run around the swimming pool 3 rounds!! no walking!! if walk have to round another round T.T. it was so hot!! i wonder y it dun start rain earlier?? haha!! den after running we gt stretching session. after tat were allowed to play wif the equipment. den a short briefing about our log book report. around 4pm i have to rush to citc to do my HE coursework wif my group memeber bt the rain is to heavy i only can reach canteen 2 to wait the rain to stop. while walking around at canteen 2 a guy pass by me。i look at him cz he is very familiar. guess wad? he is a malaysia artist. haha!! few of local artist came to our college to play football. so whn to take sum photograph with them and take their autograph. feel so like a sakai!! haha.. well had fun.. haha!!



ken from i want to be a model

james wong


group photo


steven if im nt wrong


alan wu


er him i dun really noe his name
bt heard my fren say he is
lee ming shun lil bro^^

after being sakai rush to citc its still raining bt no choice cz need to fnh my coursework. reach there around 4.30 plus den do my coursework until 5.15 den went for lecture replacement until 7.30pm tis is the first time i stay at skol until so late. haha!! me so rajin o?? lolz.. den bck home bath den go dinner with housemates.whn dinner all of my housemates go to order food and den the drinks came so i pay for it. the most funny part is whn we left they din noe i paid yeu shin at there wondering we pay the drinks already ant. and the stall guy ignore him cz ive pay. the most funny all of them tot is chris the one who pay cz he always treat us. all of them were wondering who pay haha!! after dinner came bck on9 trying to surf the web to get summore info for my He coursework bt stupid line make the website down!! arghh!! kek dao!! so in the end ended up play fb den around 3pm eat pills den sleep^^ tats all bout yesterday.

btw today is kenny my housemate bufdae!!

happy bufdae to you kenny wan! hope u have a happy bufdae and wish u all the best in the future^^


#baby min#

对不起！请你原谅我！

我每天都努力改变我自己！做好我自己！我只是说去我的想法！有时我就是因为妒忌所以会变了自私！我真的不明白为什么我做什么你都回生气！我做什么都是错！可是他做的东西你就会去关心它！不怪他！难道我我做错了一次永远都是错吗？还是你生气是因为你爱我？你介意？我真的不懂要真么了！我不要失去了你！我求求你不要在生气我了！我改天什么都不管了！欣慰说什么做什么我都当作看不到！你要劝慰他还是什么我都没关系了！你不离开我我就可以了！对不起！请你原谅我！

f1rst Day of coc0riculuM

today is the first day of cocurilum.. i submitted for gym.. my course is from 2 to 4pm.. went to skol early today went out for lunch with zhan yen den around 1.30 pm went to gymnasium 3 for cocuriculum... there were 35 person in my session.. and my coach is a woman.. she is a very fierce and unfriendly person.. she is strict!! i so afraid of her!! she is no diff with a female tiger haha!!after gym went home.. den around 6pm went out to get a printer with frenz.. were suppose to get printer bt end up watch movie and shopping.. i forget to bring my fon out.. haha!! today is the first time i leave my fon for sooo long.. haha!! den went around kl.. den rush home to do homework.. first thing reach home c my hp.. receive few msg asking to have lunch and a unexpected msg.. hehe.. a msg from a special person... my hubby.. he msg to tell me he is goin to bed.. haha!! its so surprising..he nvr use to msg me b4 he goin to sleep wan..so feel so happy tat he now always let me noe whn he is goin to sleep..^^well now im suppose to do homework now.. bt im soooo sleepy so i think im goin to bed.. haha!! tmr morning still gt class.. so really gotta sleep.. today blog a bit short.. haha!! hope u guys dun mind.. nite nite^^

#baby min#

为什么？难道这就是报应？

为什么？为什么没一次都是要我让一步？难道我就没有感受吗？当我被伤害的时候~谁来关心我？谁来雇我的感受？难道我做错了一次永远都是坏的那一个人吗？难道我的感受就不需要雇了吗？原来我是个冷血动物！我现在才知道！镇的好笑咯！我永远都是错的那一个！因为我是个大笨蛋！不会想的女孩。。T.T

tr0ubl3 aNd b@d k@rma!!!

today woke at 10 smtg.. den on9 awhile.. around 11 smtg went out wif nicole.. went for sushi.. on the way to sushi almost accident lucky ntg happen...den came bck awhile to rest and clean up hubby room.. after tat around 2 smtg went out again wif nicole.. went around ktn to find a nice place to do massage.. cz im so stress and tired.. massage needed to relax!! went few places finnaly found one beauty center gt empty time.. went to herbaline.. there r only available for one massage and one facial.. so i went for facial cz gt student price..

after done facial i receive a call from hubby.. receive a very very bad news.. straight away moodless..my heart was sooo pain!! i was speechless and scare.. i really scare wad i wry is happening.. i really duno wad to do.. he keep on ask me nt to wry bt i jz cant stop thinking bout it.. i really very scat.. fetch nicole home den i rush bck home to discuss with hubby about it.. on the way rushing home almost car accident again!! omg wad is happening with me?? y all the bad things is happening on me??i was out of control bcz of over speed.. lucky ntg happen.. i manage to reach home safely.. my bus suppose to be 7.30pm bt whn i reach there the bus has gone.. so bought a 8pm bus.. whn i was on the way bck to kl..i didnt sleep at the bus.. my tears keep dripping.. im so scare.. reach kl around 11 smtg.. bck home stop crying.. try my best to smile.. cz i dwan to spoil my housemates mood.. try my best to smile.. bt no matter hw the pain and wry is stil in my heart.. until now i try to sleep sooo many time i still cant manage to sleep.. i really duno hw ar!!! damn wry now lo.. haiz... hope ntg bad is gonna happen.. hope hubby will be bless by god.. wish him all the best!!

#baby min#

th3 d@y N t1m3 i dr3am t0 happ3n

came bck to ktn to accompany my husband..lately he treat me very nice.. he care and gv me his love.. although he do sumtimes make me angry and sad by saying his xgf matter... cz im a sensitive and easy jealous d person.. so everytime whn he say bout her i will get piss off!! bt i noe its over then its over.. bt sumtimes he keep on say were frenz only.. i really feel confuse.. i dun noe he actually want to be with me or wad.. bt he treat me jz like hw he treat a gf.. i really confuse lo.. bt i dun mind as long as he love me who am i to him i aso nvm la.. for me a status is nt important most important is i can be with the one who i love and gv my baby a happy family.. tats the most important things in my life..^^ bt i wonder hw long will all tis last?? a things tat i nvr tot will possible happen again had jz happen.. well will tis be a things tat i never tot will last forever will last forever?? i duno la.. now all i can do is appreciate all our moment together and being loyal to each other while were still together... i hope my daughter can be here together with us.. being 1 happy family.. i really miss my baby so much!! i wonder hw is she doin... hopefully next week i can c her!! me n hubby aso miss her alot.. i guess now both of us aso noe wad is a parent responsible.. hope our effort can bring a happy family to baby meiko!!

today i woke at 12 smtg.. hubby woke at 7smtg.. he went for fishing b4 he left h gave a kiss.. its so sweet of him...^^after wake up whn for a bath den go saloon for a hair wash.. haha!! so waste of money.. bt wad to do no hair dryer.. i dwan go out with a sakai hair style.. haha.. den came bck.. den not long after resting went out wif lee lian and few others.. go seng kong yam cha.. chit chat awhile.. den bck home wait for hubby to come bck.. around 6 smtg hubby came home.. we watch tv together... so long no watch tv together and aso watch tv.. since i start staying alone i seldom watch tv.. bcz most of my time i aso go out wif frenz.. den after stay at kl aso no time watch and no tv watch.. haha!! den after tat whn for candle dinner with hubby.. sooo romantic.. haha!!! bt actually is bcz no electric tats y so romantic...then after dinner.. came bck home.. cz both of us aso very tired.. now im updating my blog and listen music haha!! i know i didnt update my blog lately.. bcz im busy and a bit lazy.. haha!! well hope u guys enjoy wit my new updates and feel happy reading it..^^

#baby min#

520 我爱你！

today is 20/5/2010 it mean 520 in chinese mean 我爱你 i love u.. today wake up call guo en.. discuss bout starting a business.. haha!! chat chat den i sudd wish him happy 520.. den i write at his fb wall post.. i ask his permission b4.. he was ok.. actually i think he tot today is our marriage 3rd anniversary.. bcz he say its a special day...lucky he din forget.. haha!! he ask me to go out and have dinner on tat day.. so sunday i wil be goin bck to c weather he really meant it ant.. haha!! well everything is past bt he still remember i guess he still have the heart gua..^^

today went to sunway with doreen and eric.. my touch n go kena blacklist lolx.. haha!! we shop around went to get sum stationary and college use d stuffy.. den walk walk walk... den go have dinner den go find doreen frenz.. around 8pm jonathan came to fetch us to kelana jaya to go on lrt to go bck to wangsa maju.. reach home around 9 smtg.. den check on fb.. haiz.. whn check fb straight away sienz.. i really duno wad is so nice to jealous about.. i only write 2010.05.20 only ma.. since today is a special day ma.. den gt ppl go trash talk me at fb.. wad a childish way.. summore say wan to slap me.. really speechless lo.. like tat aso wan slap ppl.. haiz.. now a days d girl.. a bit only already wan whack ppl.. no eye c.. haiz.. summore wan say me if gt anything nt sastified go find her face to face.. now is who trash talk and backstab ppl?? i really speechless... haiz.. if u really wan beat me come beat la.. i din do anything wrong.. u wan hw den hw.. dun trash talk me can d.. i gt my own image pls dun ruin it.. i wont go and ruin ur relationship.. dun wry wor.. i really wish u wan wor.. if i wan ruin early aso ruined d la.. =.=''

today a person tat been dissapear for almost a year plus sudd appear at fb.. guess who.. he is the one i use to go crazy off and love alot!! i think sum of u noe who.. haha!! i dwan to write out here.. let u all guess.. he msg me at fb.. asking me hw am i.. and den he unblocked me at his msn haha!! we chat and webcam almost the whole nite.. he look so handsome.. still the same.. no changes.. haha.. well we chat alot of things la.. bt i can c he really let go everything already.. im happy for him.. the most funny thing is his eng is sooo deep.. and my eng sooo poor.. haha... he was so nt use to it.. cz last time my english was quite okay.. haha!! well.. i duno weather he is single or nt la.. bt i knew is he smoke alot!! we webcam nt even an hour he already smoke 3 times.. omg!! tis fella is a smoker freak!! really wad gd boy image aso no more d.. haha... bt smtg is a bit diff.. i duno wad izit.. bt i feel smtg weird.. well felt happy were frenz bck.. well im here to wish him all the best tho.. hope he will have a gd gf in the future... he is no more youngster.. he is turning 22th.. haha...

now im still dl all my lecture notes and tutorial... tmr morning 8am gt class till 11pm.. i wonder hw is the lecture.. i hope wont be like QS lecturer again!! if like tat lecture i really will die!!
wish me tmr gd luck will get a gd lecturer..^^

#baby min#

w0rst Day 3ver...

today wake at 9 smtg bath and get ready den go college... reach early today.. today lecture is qs (quantitative studies) the lecturer has a very annoying habit... he love to swallow saliva whn giving lecture.. haha!! the worst part he love to explain long long den in the end say tis u no need to take note cZ its out of the syllabus.. lolx!! i was like!! wad?? i copy down d u say no need..=.='' really sucks lo.. den whn he ask us to take note he go and take away the slide.. really duno wad tis stupid lecture wan lo!! beh tahan!!

after lecture came bck.. den on9 awhile do sum chores den go take nap.. wake up go jusco to get some grocery.. den went dinner with frenz.. the most worst is i have to pay rm50 for ntg.. my fren car get lock at my apartment.. bt im the one who have to pay.. bcz she say she no money.. wtf?? u can buy branded stuff bt u no money pay... speechless..

now i left rm20 bucks.. i really duno wan hw to go on lo.. still gt 4 days more only gt money.. haiz.. really die dis time.. shit!!

#baby min#

f1rst Day of coll3ge...

today first day of college.. went for IA lectures.. i was late for it.. haha!! first bad image.. whn went in i was soooo blur.. the lecture speak like machine gun only.. i dun even understand.. bt luckily in the end i still manage to understand.. well today d class ok ok la.. hope tat i can cope with it... actually i was thinking to leave here and go other place bcz of sum reason.. bt i think properly.. i did nt do anyhting wrong.. y should i avoid her?? y am i so afraid of facing her?? so i decide nt to change bt face it.. if realy cant stand only transfer.. today i keep on think bout him.. im such a fool.. haiz.. ppl dwan me bt stil think bout him.. damn stupid..

today bck from college took a rest den settle some work things.. den cook maggi for my breakfast,lunch and dinner.. haha!! 3 in 1.. gd rite?? lolx.. den went for a nap.. sudd he call me.. he scold me bout my blog.. cz i scolded sum1.. my heart was so pain.. i dun understand.. i know he love her and precious her.. bt hw say im aso a girl i aso have feeling and image.. dint he think bout it?? i really dissapointed once and once he fall to my trap.. he really let me c his real person.. i really speechless.. bt nvm.. i can take tis as a lesson.. i aso need to thanks to him.. in the future i will surely becarefull..

jz now there was a photography agency msg me.. offering me weather interested to be a photo shoot model ant.. i was so shock!! cz im so short and nt photogenic aso gt ppl interested.. bt i think i wan to pay attn on my study so i push away their offer.. hope i wont regret.. haha!! cz i noe taking tis offer i can earn money.. bt i think study is more important la.. so hope tat next time in the future i can get sum job tat is smtg like tat..

now im doin my tutorial work and notes.. omg!! first day already so many things.. really siao lo.. haha!! hope tat i can chase everything.. hehe!! so tats all for today.. now need continue my work..^^

#baby min#

Fin@llY!!

today finally i went to shopping with my frenz... its been so long i didnt go to time square or sungei wang.. its almost 3 years.. after i was pragnent i didnt went to kl already.. everyday at ktn only.. feel so enjoy.. bt my purse really bleeding.. today budget were suppose to be rm50 bt end up rm100.. bought a pair of shoes and some clothes.. i aso bought touch n go for convenience.. touch n go cost me rm30.. then i paid for the rental rm87.50 i took rm300 now left rm90 only.. so cham ar!! really pokai.. tmr need buy table summore.. really cham ar!!! duno wan hw survive still gt soooo many days.. plus my salary aso haven out.. summore need to clear all the money i owe my fren.. headache la!! really use to much!! T.T

today is the first day my bf didnt find me.. i guess wad i did its too over.. i guess i have hurt him deeply.. hope he is ok with it.. bcz i really cant accept a new relationship yet.. bt i duno hw to let go him.. cz he treat me very nice.. bt hope tAT he will found a better one.. bcz i knew tat im nt a really gd gf.. i guess he stop finding me is smtg gd la.. well my class gonna start tis monday i guess love and romance all tis i will put aside.. include my ex husband.. i admit i still love him.. bt i think 50% me n him is impossible already..bcz his heart is no more belongs to me.. well being single maybe will be smtg gd la.. all i need to do is b strong.. try to be discipline.. if nt happy then find frenz.. i have many frenz tat always stand by my side support me..^^

well im quite tired now.. hopefully tmr wake up d my day will be better..^^

#baby min#

b@ck in kL..

went bck to ktn last tues day for two days to settle my job.. last nite came bck to kl.. bcz those days in ktn were so suffer... problems keep on pouring in.. im so sick of trouble and problem.. last nite after bck at kl my stresses and annoyed has all gone.. feel so relax now.. i guess i really need sum time to cool down.. maybe leaving ktn and go for studies is a gd.. at least i have sum space to nt to think of him.. well.. today wake at 12 smtg.. so long didnt sleep till so late d lo.. haha.. now at home fat mou.. frenz all go shopping liao left me alone!! T.T hope later can go get my things la.. my stupid handbag spoil again d.. i really lost trust with vincci d.. their bag quality is getting worse!! omg!! ltr gotta go settle it and get a new bag.. ^^

b3ginn1ng

yesterday was the first day of orientation.. meet sum new frenz and old frenz... the place was so crowded... my college was like soooo huge... i walk until leg aso wan break d.. crazy.. and tis college were suppose to be banned wearing short pants or sexy clothing.. bt whn i went there those student were wearing all those clothing tat were band... tis prove college rules are useless... haha!! i went for the orientation awhile den i went off after half an hour.. cz it was soooo lame... so went to settle my admission and make my student id.. i went to took a passport photo to make sure my student id have a nice photo bt nvr tot they use those cam and take and straight away done.. i so regreted!! cz i was whole body sweating and my hair was so fugly and i was wearing their stupid clothes!! plus i tied up my hair!! my face look like a big head girl!! sooooo fugly!! so i was thinking to report lost and make a new one.. cz its tooo fugly to bring around.. after tat worst nightmare li hao bring me to c pv and metroview.. den went to mcd for brunch and tea.. den go bck home.. the college were like spa only!! my whole body sweating until like bathing.. so came bck take a rest den bath den waited kenny.. he took me and his bro to jusco to get some grocery den went to pj for dinner and went to get bus ticket.. so came bck around 10smtg lo... chit chat around wif housemates till 3am!!! haha.. den sleep... ^^tats my first day of kl life..

#baby m1n#

th3 n3w st@ge of My lif3

tmr will be my first day being at college... today move in to my new room.. meet few new housemate shin,jit seng,dora, and chris... all of them are very nice.. im currently renting a room at alpha.. the enviroment is nt gd as hw i expect bt still ok la.. haha... at least i have a nice housemates.. today went to carefour with my roommate vivian to get sum dairy use things and aso bed.. spend alotz!! now pokai liao.. aso duno wan hw to go through tmr and day after.. cham cham really cham...

the last few days b4 i leave i cant believe he accompany almost 24 hour everyday...i tot there is hope.. hw noe everything tat happen is no more happening.. now wad is left is memories and pain... nvr tot i fall for it again.. im such a fool.. bt i feel his sincere.. im so confuse.. i dont noe wad i should do.. i really like those feelings.. bt now it will nvr happen again.. cz its nt true.. he is jz only giving me a sweet memories b4 i leaving i guess..

anyway time pass days and life still go on.. no point looking bck.. bt i still always look bck.. it is so hard to control ur feelings.. i really hope i can be strong and keep on look forward and stop hoping bout smtg in the past to come bck.. hopefully i can go through.. now im goin to a new stage of my life tat is college life.. i hope i dun have to bring my past with me... i jz wan a happy life.. bt i still hope tat i can have a future wif him.. i dont know y ive been hurt so deeply by him bt i still want him so much am i a fool?? i guess so.. well hopefully in the future things will go as hw i plan.. ^^

may god bless me...

#baby m1n#

4_3va iN p@in

sat nite and yesterday the things tat i most worried has happened.. i c it with my own eyes.. i now i knew wad is pain.. its so hurt until my tears keep dripping.. i really hate tat feeling.. i feel so lost.. everything is jz like end of the world.. bt no matter wad i have too stand up strong.. i cannot colapse so easily.. i will continue fight for it!! even though my life now has no more hapiness bt i will try my best to get it bck.. i really wan to thnx alot to all my frenz for supporting me.. without u all i duno wad will happen to me now.. i really feel touch by all ur supports!! thnx.. i will always be str0ng and gambateh!!

new n3w new!!!

hmmm... i was trying to login to my old blog bt appears i forgot my pass and so on.. so decide to start a new blog.. act first i wan to start a new blog is nt jz bcz i forgot my old blog pass~ its actually aso bcz recently i have let go everything and decide to start a new lifestyle and new me~ i believe by starting it i should let go all my old thinking and aso story.. past is the past.. hopefully things will be better after all tis..

finally if nt wrong sum of my prob had been able to be solve already.. so im nt that stressful anymore bt... i still haven really begin my new life.. my new life will be goin bck to ktn.. sound gd.. bt i have to handle my princess to him bcz i have no strenght to take care her.. bt i will everyday go n visit her.. i will be there alone.. staying bck at my old condo.. guess.. tis time i really have to be on my own.. i have cfm a job bck in ktn.. they gv very gd salary.. bt i need to work hard.. so hopefully things will go better so on..


for now i have plan to let go the hope of being together with my husband.. bt i will still love him.. i will change my self and try to touch his heart.. i wan him to love me with his true heart.. tis is the only way to have a happy family.. so i will try hard to change my self.. the crazy and wild vanessa have to dissapear and bcum a gd vanessa..to bcum a gd vanessa first i need to quit these:

*no more clubbing!!
*no more over friendly action!
*no more jealousy!!
*no more bad tempered!!

and to be a gd vanessa i must be:

#be patient
#a good mom
#a good wife
#never be jealous easily
#no vuglar
#gd temper
#humour
#always smile
#loyal to love

hopefully i will success to be a better person..
now my first step is be responsible to all the mistake i have done!!
wish me all the best..

~baby min~