h@ppy 0r SaD??

today is the 2nd day i didnt talk to my husband.. he is my ex husband or husband?? i aso duno.. haiz... i seriously love him alot now.. i try so hard to let go him bt i still cant.. i try to love another person i fail.. i try to stop thinking of him aso fail.. i duno wad else i can do to let him go.. i now understand y he feel tat im annoying.. i guess i to stick to him, i keep on wry him and find him.. i love him too much and he dun even love me.. tat is y he feel im annoyed.. i wonder whn only he will accept me bck?? izit possible?? i really duno.. everyday i at there waiting him.. my fren all scold me say im a fool keep on wait him.. eventhough i already knew its impossible bt i still want him.. am i stupid or wad?? im jz lying my self i guess.. hmmm.. hopefully miracle will happen la..

bck to my life at kl.. now a days im having exam and presentation and need rush assignment..i have done my HE assignment. now left IA and english.. next week thursday is my presentation. gt bit excited bt aso gt bit wry cz its my first time.. duno hw will it goes.. presentation sure mean formal.. so i have to wear formal and high heels for the whole day next thursday!! from 8.00am till 5.30pm.. die die die!! my leg sure pain like shit.. haiz.. T.T

today is wednesday mean is gym day.. haha!! today is my elbow bridge test.. b4 test my coach gv us sum briefing about the next test tat is sit up and push up test.. push up was the hardest thing for me.. i think i will surely fail the test.. we need to get 50 times to pass.. sure die!! i only manage 10 times.. so big diff.. for sit up aso 50 times.. lucky i can do around 20.. so need to practice now so i can pass my cocu course.. haha!! today elbow bridge test i manage to stand for 1 minutes and 15 second!! i gt 5 marks.. bt only on more second i can get 6 marks!! so angry!! i didnt stand a little longer.. arggghh!!one more thing today i brw my coursemate umbrella cz it was raining like cats and dog.. i put the umbrella on top of my locker and after gym come out umbrella lost!! omg!! umbrella le.. summore is old old wan!! aso gt ppl wan steal.. really no eye c lo.. haiz.. so i have to replace one to nav tmr..

today i at gym class knew a group of student from johor.. they r very friendly i knew 5 of them.. nika,jin he,kelvin,pei hsia and sherlyn.. there are 1 special thing bout them is the boys cook for the girls.. haha!!! now a days d guy really diff d.. haha!!! they were so nice that they invited me to join them for dinner.. bt i din went today.. hopefully i can join them next time..^^

i really thankx god that in moment that i really needs fren he send them to me..
i guess god really love me and wants me to appreciatte my self more and nt wasting my time dripping tears bcz of my husbad.. i will appreciate my friendship and nvr let them down.. i guess my fren willl be the best medicine to stop thinking of him.. hopefully i can get over tis two weeks not finding him.. i hope after tis two weeks he will nt be angry at me already and treating me same like last time.. seriously i really miss him.. i miss his smile and his hugs sooo much..T.T