h@ppy 0r SaD??

today is the 2nd day i didnt talk to my husband.. he is my ex husband or husband?? i aso duno.. haiz... i seriously love him alot now.. i try so hard to let go him bt i still cant.. i try to love another person i fail.. i try to stop thinking of him aso fail.. i duno wad else i can do to let him go.. i now understand y he feel tat im annoying.. i guess i to stick to him, i keep on wry him and find him.. i love him too much and he dun even love me.. tat is y he feel im annoyed.. i wonder whn only he will accept me bck?? izit possible?? i really duno.. everyday i at there waiting him.. my fren all scold me say im a fool keep on wait him.. eventhough i already knew its impossible bt i still want him.. am i stupid or wad?? im jz lying my self i guess.. hmmm.. hopefully miracle will happen la..

bck to my life at kl.. now a days im having exam and presentation and need rush assignment..i have done my HE assignment. now left IA and english.. next week thursday is my presentation. gt bit excited bt aso gt bit wry cz its my first time.. duno hw will it goes.. presentation sure mean formal.. so i have to wear formal and high heels for the whole day next thursday!! from 8.00am till 5.30pm.. die die die!! my leg sure pain like shit.. haiz.. T.T

today is wednesday mean is gym day.. haha!! today is my elbow bridge test.. b4 test my coach gv us sum briefing about the next test tat is sit up and push up test.. push up was the hardest thing for me.. i think i will surely fail the test.. we need to get 50 times to pass.. sure die!! i only manage 10 times.. so big diff.. for sit up aso 50 times.. lucky i can do around 20.. so need to practice now so i can pass my cocu course.. haha!! today elbow bridge test i manage to stand for 1 minutes and 15 second!! i gt 5 marks.. bt only on more second i can get 6 marks!! so angry!! i didnt stand a little longer.. arggghh!!one more thing today i brw my coursemate umbrella cz it was raining like cats and dog.. i put the umbrella on top of my locker and after gym come out umbrella lost!! omg!! umbrella le.. summore is old old wan!! aso gt ppl wan steal.. really no eye c lo.. haiz.. so i have to replace one to nav tmr..

today i at gym class knew a group of student from johor.. they r very friendly i knew 5 of them.. nika,jin he,kelvin,pei hsia and sherlyn.. there are 1 special thing bout them is the boys cook for the girls.. haha!!! now a days d guy really diff d.. haha!!! they were so nice that they invited me to join them for dinner.. bt i din went today.. hopefully i can join them next time..^^

i really thankx god that in moment that i really needs fren he send them to me..
i guess god really love me and wants me to appreciatte my self more and nt wasting my time dripping tears bcz of my husbad.. i will appreciate my friendship and nvr let them down.. i guess my fren willl be the best medicine to stop thinking of him.. hopefully i can get over tis two weeks not finding him.. i hope after tis two weeks he will nt be angry at me already and treating me same like last time.. seriously i really miss him.. i miss his smile and his hugs sooo much..T.T

str3ss3s is h3re to v1sit m3 ag@in^^

this is the fourth week of my 1st semester, next week is the fifth week. this mean i have to pass up my HE(hubungan etnik) coursework and my ME (microeconomic) is gonna have a exam next week. the problem is HE i haven settle my coursework!! the worst first week until noe i dun even understand even a bit about my ME subject!! now i have to chase all subject cz nt even one subject i understand.. luckily IA(introduction of accounting) i start to understand a bit le!! haha.. cant believe rite?? form 5 im economic and account student bt my weakness is this two subject^^ hopefully i can manage to catch back everything after putting effort in it.. i would nt wan to retake the whole semester again!! wish me all the best^^

yesterday went for gym. yesterday was a hectic day. went around with filthy wet clothes because its raining like cats and dogs summore no umbrella im so genius rite?? haha!! the rain start whn my gym almost ended!! i have to go to citc and they have no shade until citc! so it mean i have to go under the rain. went for lunch with kenny around 1 smtg. then went to skol at 2pm for gym. whn reach gym the first thing we do is run around the swimming pool 3 rounds!! no walking!! if walk have to round another round T.T. it was so hot!! i wonder y it dun start rain earlier?? haha!! den after running we gt stretching session. after tat were allowed to play wif the equipment. den a short briefing about our log book report. around 4pm i have to rush to citc to do my HE coursework wif my group memeber bt the rain is to heavy i only can reach canteen 2 to wait the rain to stop. while walking around at canteen 2 a guy pass by me。i look at him cz he is very familiar. guess wad? he is a malaysia artist. haha!! few of local artist came to our college to play football. so whn to take sum photograph with them and take their autograph. feel so like a sakai!! haha.. well had fun.. haha!!



ken from i want to be a model

james wong


group photo


steven if im nt wrong


alan wu


er him i dun really noe his name
bt heard my fren say he is
lee ming shun lil bro^^

after being sakai rush to citc its still raining bt no choice cz need to fnh my coursework. reach there around 4.30 plus den do my coursework until 5.15 den went for lecture replacement until 7.30pm tis is the first time i stay at skol until so late. haha!! me so rajin o?? lolz.. den bck home bath den go dinner with housemates.whn dinner all of my housemates go to order food and den the drinks came so i pay for it. the most funny part is whn we left they din noe i paid yeu shin at there wondering we pay the drinks already ant. and the stall guy ignore him cz ive pay. the most funny all of them tot is chris the one who pay cz he always treat us. all of them were wondering who pay haha!! after dinner came bck on9 trying to surf the web to get summore info for my He coursework bt stupid line make the website down!! arghh!! kek dao!! so in the end ended up play fb den around 3pm eat pills den sleep^^ tats all bout yesterday.

btw today is kenny my housemate bufdae!!

happy bufdae to you kenny wan! hope u have a happy bufdae and wish u all the best in the future^^


#baby min#

对不起！请你原谅我！

我每天都努力改变我自己！做好我自己！我只是说去我的想法！有时我就是因为妒忌所以会变了自私！我真的不明白为什么我做什么你都回生气！我做什么都是错！可是他做的东西你就会去关心它！不怪他！难道我我做错了一次永远都是错吗？还是你生气是因为你爱我？你介意？我真的不懂要真么了！我不要失去了你！我求求你不要在生气我了！我改天什么都不管了！欣慰说什么做什么我都当作看不到！你要劝慰他还是什么我都没关系了！你不离开我我就可以了！对不起！请你原谅我！

f1rst Day of coc0riculuM

today is the first day of cocurilum.. i submitted for gym.. my course is from 2 to 4pm.. went to skol early today went out for lunch with zhan yen den around 1.30 pm went to gymnasium 3 for cocuriculum... there were 35 person in my session.. and my coach is a woman.. she is a very fierce and unfriendly person.. she is strict!! i so afraid of her!! she is no diff with a female tiger haha!!after gym went home.. den around 6pm went out to get a printer with frenz.. were suppose to get printer bt end up watch movie and shopping.. i forget to bring my fon out.. haha!! today is the first time i leave my fon for sooo long.. haha!! den went around kl.. den rush home to do homework.. first thing reach home c my hp.. receive few msg asking to have lunch and a unexpected msg.. hehe.. a msg from a special person... my hubby.. he msg to tell me he is goin to bed.. haha!! its so surprising..he nvr use to msg me b4 he goin to sleep wan..so feel so happy tat he now always let me noe whn he is goin to sleep..^^well now im suppose to do homework now.. bt im soooo sleepy so i think im goin to bed.. haha!! tmr morning still gt class.. so really gotta sleep.. today blog a bit short.. haha!! hope u guys dun mind.. nite nite^^

#baby min#

为什么？难道这就是报应？

为什么？为什么没一次都是要我让一步？难道我就没有感受吗？当我被伤害的时候~谁来关心我？谁来雇我的感受？难道我做错了一次永远都是坏的那一个人吗？难道我的感受就不需要雇了吗？原来我是个冷血动物！我现在才知道！镇的好笑咯！我永远都是错的那一个！因为我是个大笨蛋！不会想的女孩。。T.T

tr0ubl3 aNd b@d k@rma!!!

today woke at 10 smtg.. den on9 awhile.. around 11 smtg went out wif nicole.. went for sushi.. on the way to sushi almost accident lucky ntg happen...den came bck awhile to rest and clean up hubby room.. after tat around 2 smtg went out again wif nicole.. went around ktn to find a nice place to do massage.. cz im so stress and tired.. massage needed to relax!! went few places finnaly found one beauty center gt empty time.. went to herbaline.. there r only available for one massage and one facial.. so i went for facial cz gt student price..

after done facial i receive a call from hubby.. receive a very very bad news.. straight away moodless..my heart was sooo pain!! i was speechless and scare.. i really scare wad i wry is happening.. i really duno wad to do.. he keep on ask me nt to wry bt i jz cant stop thinking bout it.. i really very scat.. fetch nicole home den i rush bck home to discuss with hubby about it.. on the way rushing home almost car accident again!! omg wad is happening with me?? y all the bad things is happening on me??i was out of control bcz of over speed.. lucky ntg happen.. i manage to reach home safely.. my bus suppose to be 7.30pm bt whn i reach there the bus has gone.. so bought a 8pm bus.. whn i was on the way bck to kl..i didnt sleep at the bus.. my tears keep dripping.. im so scare.. reach kl around 11 smtg.. bck home stop crying.. try my best to smile.. cz i dwan to spoil my housemates mood.. try my best to smile.. bt no matter hw the pain and wry is stil in my heart.. until now i try to sleep sooo many time i still cant manage to sleep.. i really duno hw ar!!! damn wry now lo.. haiz... hope ntg bad is gonna happen.. hope hubby will be bless by god.. wish him all the best!!

#baby min#

th3 d@y N t1m3 i dr3am t0 happ3n

came bck to ktn to accompany my husband..lately he treat me very nice.. he care and gv me his love.. although he do sumtimes make me angry and sad by saying his xgf matter... cz im a sensitive and easy jealous d person.. so everytime whn he say bout her i will get piss off!! bt i noe its over then its over.. bt sumtimes he keep on say were frenz only.. i really feel confuse.. i dun noe he actually want to be with me or wad.. bt he treat me jz like hw he treat a gf.. i really confuse lo.. bt i dun mind as long as he love me who am i to him i aso nvm la.. for me a status is nt important most important is i can be with the one who i love and gv my baby a happy family.. tats the most important things in my life..^^ bt i wonder hw long will all tis last?? a things tat i nvr tot will possible happen again had jz happen.. well will tis be a things tat i never tot will last forever will last forever?? i duno la.. now all i can do is appreciate all our moment together and being loyal to each other while were still together... i hope my daughter can be here together with us.. being 1 happy family.. i really miss my baby so much!! i wonder hw is she doin... hopefully next week i can c her!! me n hubby aso miss her alot.. i guess now both of us aso noe wad is a parent responsible.. hope our effort can bring a happy family to baby meiko!!

today i woke at 12 smtg.. hubby woke at 7smtg.. he went for fishing b4 he left h gave a kiss.. its so sweet of him...^^after wake up whn for a bath den go saloon for a hair wash.. haha!! so waste of money.. bt wad to do no hair dryer.. i dwan go out with a sakai hair style.. haha.. den came bck.. den not long after resting went out wif lee lian and few others.. go seng kong yam cha.. chit chat awhile.. den bck home wait for hubby to come bck.. around 6 smtg hubby came home.. we watch tv together... so long no watch tv together and aso watch tv.. since i start staying alone i seldom watch tv.. bcz most of my time i aso go out wif frenz.. den after stay at kl aso no time watch and no tv watch.. haha!! den after tat whn for candle dinner with hubby.. sooo romantic.. haha!!! bt actually is bcz no electric tats y so romantic...then after dinner.. came bck home.. cz both of us aso very tired.. now im updating my blog and listen music haha!! i know i didnt update my blog lately.. bcz im busy and a bit lazy.. haha!! well hope u guys enjoy wit my new updates and feel happy reading it..^^

#baby min#