白色情人节~

白色情人节是什么意思呢？？我也不是很清楚~我只知道的事‘白色情人节’是女子给男子礼物~但是我的白色情人节是自己过~今天我对他说了白色情人节~它不理我~当其他女生对他说他就对回他们说情人节快乐~这是什么意思？心里觉得好同~也许我永远都不会在拥有你的爱！不关我做什么你也不会原谅我~也不会感觉到我的爱了~我在想如果有一天我真的走了~你真的会很快了吗？好饭啊！！！算了吧！不要想太多了！等宝宝取来了在打算把！对拉！我有第二个孩子了！宝宝六月就来这个世界了~好期待哦！这一次我不打算看是男孩是女子~因为不管是男还是女宝宝都是我的~希望接下来的日子会好过把~~最近我每天都在追on call 36小时~真的很好看~你们有空的话可以去看看这个戏~好啦！我不写了~也不知道要写什么~觉得好饭就是了~他的生日又要到了！今年是我第五次陪她过生日~希望那天不会是个伤心难过的一天~而是个开开心心的日子~

~babymin~

dissapointment

u dun understand... since u dun like me as ur wife why u want me to born tis baby for u?? y u still wan to go on?? bt then ur goin out with all the bitch?? always say go work la talk business la tis and that but in the end?? whr u go?? in the end u go out with those bitch!! always say busy no time for me need to work!! but ur gv ur damn time to those bitch!! everyday find them aso no time for me!! what u think i am to u??!!! T.T

很不开心！！！

不知道为什么~心理感觉到很痛~每天看见你和其他女人在一起~叫他去看电影~和他吃饭~那我了？？我还在你心里吗？还是我是多余的~每次等你吃饭~等了一个晚上~你回来就说我吃饱了~你到底有没有当我是你的老婆？你的老婆吃了没有你也不管~突然间觉得好寂寞~明明有老公~可是每天都是自己在过~当你需要我的时候你才找我~如果我做不到你要的东西你就大发脾气~我可以做的就是忍耐~到底还要多久你才能看到我这个老婆？才会有时间陪你这个老婆？？我到底还要伤心多久？？还要忍耐多久？？我快要倒下了~我不是你想象的那么坚强~

~敏敏~

My new baby arrive.. haha!!

yeah!!! i gt my first car!!! so mean there smtg to pay every month so need to plan my financial properly..many stuff need to be planned... plsu my girl is goin to start school next year so nt only financial bt aso my time need to be arranged...my life now is all on my own.. bcz there use to b a special sum1 who will always advice me warn me n care me.. bt he is gone now.. so i need to handle all my stuff on my own.. without him sumtimes life is boring and lonely even messy!! bt impossible i can hold on him forever.. so i will take tis chance to handle all my stuff bck on my own.. hopefully ntg goes wrong la..his bufdae jz pass haha.. i knew him for 5 year plus and i nvr present him anything.. so jz for a last present i bought him his favourite toy call gundam.. lolx!! din noe that gundam gt soooo many version...bt i bought the latest version for him.. hopefully he like it la.. anyway wish him all the best la.. with his condition he will surely have a perfect partner in the future... hopefully he will have a happy life in the future...

last weekend that is 9/7/11 is my manager birthday.. so after work we went to after 7 .. so long no appear on clubs.. haha!! went there saw lotsa old fren such as andrew, arman, and my hopeless godbrother andrew cheah... saw sum of my ex classmates and aso a group of fren whr we use to hang out whn i was lonely bt now were stranger bcz of sum misunderstanding.. on that nite i went with my husband. feel happy bcz he really change he didnt reach for girls already.. haha.. gd news?? guess so.. well that nite was a boring and hot and tiring night.. it was sooo pack until i gt step by a girl few times.. and she dun bother to say sry.. maybe she is drunk la.. bt if in kl u step on ppl no matter hw drunk u will still hear sry.. well wad to do ktn club is always diff with kl club.. i miss maison and quattro soooo much!!! duno whn only gt chance to go.. aih... well my alcohol level is very very low. nw even 1 bottle i aso can fnh up.. and even drink liquor i aso cant.. haha.. maybe really too long no go le.. i retire from tis lane d.. haha!! well aso gd la.. all these is nt good for health aso.. haha!!!

well now bck to my life.. lately my work life is a bit of chaos... alot of misunderstanding and stress.. finally i felt the real stress!! its brain migrain and tiring.. my head is always pain and heavy.. and i non stop eat... i just eat wad eva is in front of me.. yeah!! eat eat eat!! eat until my husband aso start to control me.. cz i really do need to control and lose sum weight.. im too over!! haha... i nvr dare to weight my self bcz i noe the needle will go way high up.. haha...

so harry potter last ep7 part 2 is finally out!! i almost forget bout tis movie i use to love watching!! suppose to watch with jia yin and doreen and kar ann tis friday bt bcz doreen kena blacklist cz alway out wif her aso gt boys.. so my husband control already.. hahaha!! even doreen go ask for permission he aso dun allowed.. also is bcz i need take care of my girl.. well i ask him acc me watch guess wad?? 1000000 reason he gv!! sienz... so nvm la.. since part1 i aso haven watch.. jz bought the cd.. so watch part1 first la.. whn out part 2 only buy n cont la.. what to do... haha!! bt many ppl say is nice la.. hmm.. a bit curious.. still hope to watch 3D bt no kaki.. hahaha!!! oh ya!! transformer... tis movie comment gt gd or bad.. bt i still wish to watch.. was hoping to watch with tan cheryl to9 bt duno her la.. still waiting her answer.. busy girl.. haha!!! need appoinment punya.. kakax.. hope today can watch...

what else need to update?? hmmmm.... duno eh... kakax... well i guess that all la.. nxt time gt any special stuff will update again la.. hahaha!!! stay tuned yar!!!

xoxo
babymin

sum changes perhaps??

lately busy with my work.. everyday struggling to hit my target!!! haiz.. business so hard to do lo..

okay.. lately went for movie with my husband n friends.. i feel sastified with my life now.. bcz i have a group of good colleague and a group of supportive fren and a strict husband.. haha!!! ya strict husband... he is stirct on me.. bt he treat me gd whn i do listen and do wad is should do... so im sastified... i got almost everything i wanted except for sum others.. bt i will add oil to get it!! hehehe.... hmmm..
long time no write blog le... duno wan to write wad.. haha!!! cz my life mostly aso work den bck home or go movie with husband or yc wif frenx... so its jz the recycle of my life la.. haha..

well... lately im so gila of burberry had no idea.. im in love with a burberry bag thats is the price of my salary and i wanted to buy it... im so insane... trying to control.. bcz i now my life should b simple.. those braded stuffy is nt apart if my life!!! so burberry pls leave me alone for now.. kay?? whn i got money i will come find u.. kekex..

well last nite go watch pirates with cheryl and droeen and her dear dear... >.< haha... well tis chapter is nice... especially the mermaid part.. chi gek a!!!! hahaha.. didnt noe tis show is 3 hour!!!! whn come out.. 12.30am d.. sor jor.. 9.30 until 12.30.. gila... bt inside the time pass so fast for me the movie was like 1 hour only.. haha... too nice d... tis movie is worth to watch i think if watch 3d more chi gek whn the mermaid attack!!! haha.... hmmm.. so for u all who haven see should go watch... after movie when to taj with them... me and cheryl park at the same floor.. bt doreen park upstair... we so gd teman her go up den she fetch us down!! kakakax..XP whr to find tis kind of friends.. hahaha!!! so after pay follow car go taj.. bt mana tau doreen punya kat kena makan dengan the machine.. maybe ecm d machine love her tooo much dwan let her leave.. haha!!!! so waited for her den bring her go taj.. kasian cheryl have to wait for us.. who ask her drive so fast!!! i wan chase aso tak dapat... then went there order roti tisu share with cheryl.. after that i stomach pain so i chiao first.. reach home.. d go toilet.. den wan sleep stomach pain cant sleep tahan until second morning suppose to go rbeakfast mana tau sakit perut so go take my baby ru yee oil and put.. den manage to sleep awhile.. den off to work.. so itu saja hahaha... malas wan type d.. tmr update again if free..

sry today gt bit weird weird.. hahaha!! bt still hope u enjoy reading my blog..

nitex peeps!!! sleep lu..

xoxo
babymin..

uPdates!!

hey hey hey.. im back for updating.. sry for nt updating for sooooo long cz ive been busy and my laptop R.I.P manage to get a new one and smtg i like!! thnx to sum1 important to me.. without that person i wont get a laptop to use..manage to get my fav lappy dell XPS hehe... love the speaker so much!! its a JBL　ｓｐｅａｋｅｒ　ｓｏ　ｉｔｓ　ａ　ｇｄ　ｑｕａｌｉｔｙ　ｓｐｅａｋｅｒ．． appreciate it so much..

well lately i jz start my permanent job!! im currently working at new york skin solution as consultant.. still training my skills.. hope to c consult soon... jz came bck from training at HQ in kl at IGB beside mid valley.. so been browsing around midvalley for those training days.. had lotsa fun when training.. learns lotsa skill and things from it.. hmm... tis job i meet alot of diff ppl.. and my colleague all were so nice to me.. and my manager she look fierce bt she is a nice person.. she is soo way better than other manager i c b4.. in new york every1 is friendly.. currently my life is wake up den go work den come bck sleep and there cont again.. ntg special.. haha... well here is sum photo of my trainee frens.. tis blog will be a bit short cz im sooo hungry i wan go eat my dinner d!! soo long no eat my mother in law cook d dinner d.. hehe!! will update more soon.. stay tuned okay?!! hehe..

my trainee from other outlets..




my colleague...
last day of training...

enjoy it ya..

xoxo
babymin

happy CNY

wow... so long no update my blog jor lu.... well im bck.. hmm.. lets update bout my work.. okay now working at ktn parkson grand megamall its nt easy!! first u have to be a person that only say yes and dun say no and bcz ur a pt.. they will look down on u and u cannot follow theirs laws!! they do wad aso rite bt u is wrong.. so u must be genius to stay there.. well i quit there cz parkson fired me by giving the reason i run counters alotx.. okay yes its my wrong so wad?? even ut permanent aso did wad.. y u dun fired them?? brainless punya.. well next month im goin to work in a place whr every1 say its smtg like hell bt u can get high salary that is new york skin solution centre.. well hopefully i can take the lesson and experience i get from parkson and use it there... hopefully things will go well there..

well forget bout job.. now is my life.. hw say le?? life getting better i think.. though its nt in financial bt at least i have a happy family.. no more quarrel no more crying.. though there is sum heart breaking.. cz its kinda hard for me to get sumtimes from him.. anyway im sure being patient things will all slowly be settle.. its gonna be chinese new year.. my girl is already 3 and she has gone to nursery.. so mean fees and spending gone higher.. so money have to earn more.. well my financial is still nt stable cz i haven begin my permanent job.. bt after next month things will be better.. cz i found a permanent job.. with my salary i can afford many thing i like!! hehe... i already have a long list of the things i wanted... the list are..

things i wanted to buy for myself:
~nikon dslr
~fav buberry bag
~a car
~smtg special for my mom..

bt last nite.. my husband ask me for a favour.. so i guess all tis stuff have to put aside and wait until everything is settle.. last nite hubby told me bout he is unhapy wit his job he want to change job bt he is wry bout the family financial.. so he ask weather can i find a permanent job and handle for the family financial for few months while he find a better job.. so since i have found a permanent job for next month so i will handling the family financial after february.. hopefully things will go well for me in my new job.. so i can handle the family financial while my husband fins a better job.. i guess tis is wad we call family helping each other whn their in trouble.. i guess things have change and both of us is learning hw to handle a family.. hopefull with all the sacrifice i can save bck my family and have a happy family.. actually i dun wish for a rich life with owning all those branded stuff.. i just wan a simple happy family.. branded stuff are only stuff that let u showoff.. ntg else d.. since im nt that rich even i own it i will still suffer.. even though i c my fren taking it i will jealous and want to have one for myself bt think bck actually its nt a big deal my fren have is cz they can afford bt nt me.. so y nt i use my money on sum ways that can make my family happy rather than wasting money on those branded stuff.. plus now i already have things that sum ppl wan aso dun have that is family... so i rather use my money to gv my family a better life more better than buying those stuff.. if i have extra money only i will buy some of the stuff to reward myself.. hehe..

well another one week its gonna be chinese new year.. i guess my house will be as usual ope up for every1 to come and gamble and take ang pao.. haha!!! well cant wait for chinese new year so i can go gathering with my frenx.. miss then so much... even though after i married i cant go visit fren house cz i cant take ang pao d bt i also enjoy inviting my frens to my house and gv them ang pao.. hehe..

well since cny is around the corner.. have u guys my fren all bought ur new clothes and shoe?? i haven buy ar!!! i go shop everywhr even kl bt i cant even get smtg that i really like aih. thing that i really like is too expensive or else i cant find a things i like that is in my financial range.. gek sei ar!! b4 cny i always c things i like that is in my financial range bt no money.. now gt money bt ntg to buy.. haiz.. bt still can say that my financial is still very tight cz i jz meet an accident last month and i have to pay rm 550 for the stupid accident all my salary flew there.. sienz.. omg.. no extra money for myself jor.. hw much i hope cny i can take angpao.. everything will be settle from there.. haha.. well its all over.. no more ang pao for me.. T.T old jor.. haha!!

well thats all for now.. will update again.. hoep u enjoy reading it..


HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRENS..

May all of u have a prosperous year and have a safe journey for those who goin bck to hometown to meet up with the family..


babymin^^
xoxo

对你真的很失望！

我很佩服！你和每一个女生分手都说一样的东西~你很伟大！！太感动了！你每一个女生都那么爱的~每一个女生你都不像分手的~每一个女生和你都不快乐的`~没个女生都和你在一起时没有结果的`~那你和妖怪在一起吧！真不好意思当了你们的第三者~不知道还有多少个女生还要被你伤害~看来要改变的是你吧？有问题的是你吧？你这一些男生不死也没用~为什么该死的不死不该死的死了~天真的没眼~都不懂我喜欢你什么？被你伤害了一次又一次可是还是得那么喜欢你~看来我是最笨的女生~

j3njaRom my l0v3ly grAndp@r3ntS h0m3towN

jenjarom is a small area nearby banting also near dong zen a famous temple. my grandparents both aso from here.. today is my uncle wedding.. so i came down to attend his wedding he is 50 years old already.. haha!! old rite?? well every1 was so happy about it.. almost most of the relative aso attend the wedding.. well i took an opportunity to know my relative more well... whn i reach i was totally a stranger lo.. haha.. luckily my aunt drag me in and intro me to all my cousin.. haha!!! so i wont be lonely.. haha.. so hang out with them.. we went shopping and so on.. we also played lami.. haha!! well my luck is nt that good so i lose alot!!! pk d.. haiz.. bt at least i enjoy lo.. i came here i eat alot.. so many things to eat!! got many seafood and singapore food.. bcz my aunt from singapore brought back for us.. i took loads of photo.. will upload in the next post.. bcz tmr still gt.. my uncle threw a very simple wedding.. no tea ceremony.. he threw a small lunch only and a buffet at night.. hmmm im very tired.. so will update tmr.. stay to cont tmr yar.. will share all the time at hometown..^^ nite every1!!

xoxo
babymin

ｎｏｖ３ｍｂｅｒ！！！ ｆ１ｎａＬｌｙ ｉｔＳ ｈ３ｒｅ！！！

ｉｍ　ｓｏ　ｈａｐｐｙ！！！　ｂｃｚ　ｉｍ　ａ　ｎｏｖｅｍｂｅｒ　ｂａｂｙ！！！　ｇｏｓｈ！！！　ｌｏｖｅ　　ｉｔ　ｓｏｏｏｏ　ｍｕｃｈ．．　ｈｅｈｅ．．　ｔｈｅ　ｍｏｎｔｈ　ｉｖｅ　ｂｅｅｎ　ｗａｉｔｉｎｇ　ａｌｌ　ｙｅａｒ　ｆｉｎａｌｌｙ　ｒｅａｃｈ！！！　ｗｅｅｅ．．．．．　ｓｏ　ｈａｐｐｙ！！！

tis year i will be having a small party at my aunt place.. will invite sum close fren.. im still busying with the guest list... there are another two weeks from today... excited!!! hehe... feel happy that my husband took out his willingness to attend my party.. feel so happy about it.. tis birthday i hope will be a unforgetable bufdae.. first im turning 18!! yay!!! haha.. im finally legal for clubbing!! i can go in with showing my ic without worry.. wakaka!!! tis year bufdae im getting an iphone4.. yeah.. haha!!! iphone4 smtg fun for me.. hehe...

well lately ive been hanging out with my bestie tan cheryl leng zai.. haha!!! she soo leng zai and so pretty.. especially her eye.. really very easy can get sotz lo.. haha!! so to the guys out there whn go out dun c her eye.. me a girl aso kena.. if boy lagi teruk.. haha!! lolx.. (joking) p/s: cheryl dun angry yar.. joking nia.. haha!!!

last sat me n amy n cheryl and vincent and mr zi lian liang soon.. ahaha!! we went to simple to eat nasi lemak cz cheryl hungry.. then whn eating we chat bout my aunt bistro.. so decide to drop by since its jz few walks... 'i think' haha... gt go d will sure noe the few walk is hw few.. actually we come out is to celebrate vincent birthday... so i hope he is happy tat day.. haha.. bt i think we no go out he aso will very happy.. cz sum reason.. first is he gt his iphone4.. haha.. 2nd is sum reason lo.. hahaz.. well a bit pai seh no gv dao present bt at least brought him to eat smtg he nvr eat b4... haha.. and i think he is happy.. haha..
here sum photo of that day...


i know all my kl frenz miss me alot.. well here is a gd news. im goin down to kl on da 11th until 14th.. i will be celebrating my bufdae there.. so hope all of u are free for me.. hehe... bt on the 13th i will be busy cz i have relatives wedding dinner to attend.. it will be a short trip.. but i hope it will be a happy and memorable nov kl trip.. hehe... i will go bck to hq aso so my time will be kinda packed.. bt no worry clubbing u can include me.. i sure ok.. haha!!! hope to c u all soon.. miss all of u!!

well i guess im gonna stop here.. miss all of u.. and since its deepavali.. so happy deepavali to all my indian friends.. and to who ever is celebrating deepavali out there.. HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!!

xoxo
babymin

tiPsY b!tsY of wHat Im d0iN!!

hmm... off day for two days.. tmr is bonuslink 5x bonus and double voucher day.. hopefully i will get more komisen.. wish me all the best.. last tuesday i working.. my target are rm875.. i work here 3 times nt once target hitted or open bill.. tat day b4 i start my work i wipe the whole counter and ask bless from god.. surprisingly with all the effort i finally hit my target.. on tat day i open rm903 bill.. from tat day i believe god blessing.. even whn promotion at sogo i did the same thing and i aso hit my target.. this is y u must always believing in god.. he will always be there for u whn u believe in him.. whn u ask for his help u must believe in him..


a pic of me in my new uniform and at my new counter in ktn..

last tues i went out for tea with cheryl after work.. i nvr tot tat there are frens who really cares about me.. alots of my fren stand out to help me and listen to my complaint... im so happy.. everytime im sad they will be there to hear my complaint... thankx for all of u d advice... cheryl,vincent,amy,leong kiat, waie, roy my ktn frenx... pei yee, bee go, ah tip and shee gee plus ah boon my kl bestest buddy and sisters plus housemates.. staying with them let me feel family feelings.. miss them so much...
u all is my bestest frenx of all!! thnx alot for supporting me. well act i kinda miss my college mates.. especially 1 dbu 2 and gym frenz... hope to have a gathering with all of u whn i bck kl.. all of u i say about here i miss u all the most!!! u all means alot to me.. without all of u d support i would nt be here now..！！


these few days is really challenging for me.. a girl who is use to trust alot now finally has bcum a bitches.. i cant believe.. really dissapointed on her.. she is such a pervert.. i cant believe my eye.. anyway like my fren advice nvr let a bi**ch to ruin ur mood and life.. so i will take her invisible..

well lately my so call husband.. i aso duno la.. he been always smsing and talking on the fon with sum1!! well i feel so heart pain.. bt wad can i do?? she is soo important to him.. plus all she wan is me to be sad.. i dont really und wad she wan.. bt i only noe she is a total lier.. tats all.. anyway thats their prob.. i have no right to care.. all i can hope is she can gv bck my husband and my family to me.. i would appreciatte it alotx..

well its dinner time.. and im sooo hungry.. so gonna stop here.. hope all of u have a nice day...

baby min
xoxo

new lif3, n3w me, n3w sTyl3!!

today will be my first day of my diet.. hopefully i will manage to get a nice body whn it reach my bufdae!!! hehe.. alot of efforts needed cz i wanna change from 50kg to 45kg if i sucess then cont on till 40kg!! wish me all the best..

i have move bck to ktn... im currently staying at my husband i think.. duno.. haven have a clear about our relationship.. i guess for now is frens la.. i aso blurr.. anyway im now working at megamall parkson clinique counter. the sales here is nt as gd as i expext. here i gt my fisrt egg bill(no bill at all) haiz.. my rm1k salary like that fly away d.. cz i count im suppose to have rm1k of salary tis month.. bt sadly bcz of the quiet enviroment my salary very little.. hoepfully next month business will be better. on the 29th oct were having a sale. its a bonuslink 5 time bonus, hopefully that day will have many customer la.. pray god!! im currently missing a lot my kl life and frenz.. after i came bck i nvr really laugh alot and be my self.. because here what ever i do i have to think twice and no one would bother bout me.. bck here im all on my own.. no caring and no ppl to laugh with.. its kinda lonely life.. bt hopefully whn time pass things will get better here..

well since im working as partimer here i will be very free.. so i will be updating my blog as frequent as i can.. so pls feel free to update bout my life here.. and pls gv sum comment if u have any opinion.. im always ready to receive advice from my frenz..


baby min
xoxo

我要快乐！我要我的空间！

让我自己快乐有错吗？难道我要快乐是错吗？我已经那么就没有那么开心过了！我这几天好难得开开心心你就不可以不要让我伤心吗？我明天就回了~我还没有回你已经这样了！那我会去了不是更加不开心？我这几天都有做工只是昨晚了才和朋友去起~ 你可以和你的朋友去起难道我就不可以吗？有时你说你不需要我现在又生气我没有回刘在这里玩我真不明白你想要的是什么！！！！

为什么？我真的不明白！！！

为什么？？为什么我回去又要过那些生活？？难道我要开开心心得过生活都不能吗？为什么每次我回去都要过辛苦的生活？？我真不知道我该作什么好？我只是要开心~ 有那么辛苦吗？我不要过吃醋的生活~你明知道的可是你还是要这样来对我~你这样的对我你的心里会好过吗？？看到我伤心和心痛的日子你很开心吗？希望我回去了一段时间你会放开他~

borink borink borink.....

start from yesterday i was off... need wait until 17 only gt job.. so tis few days go out waste money.. bt the problem is i no money.. haha! im very very poor now.. i over spend tis month.. bt lucky my salary haven out.. haha!!! salary out le den im safe.. bt i still need to use my salary to cover my old sum.. die die die.. i really a big spender.. need to control alot d!!! aik..haha... hmmm... another few days.. tat is 21st i will be bck at hometown... haha!!! im bck to celebrate baby mieko birthday and mooncake festive... bt hor!! 21st i need to attend a gym gathering at sunway.. hw hw hw?? aikz.. duno can rush ant.. cham!!!! well.. tis few days ive been running around mid valley and times square repeatedly... im so sick of mid valley n times square d..hmmm... for today i still dont know the plan.. aikz.. bt sure will get contact lenses.. my eye sight is getting blur... ish.. haha!!!


p/s: i cut my fringe!!!! omg!!! haha....


babymin
xoxo

time tooo updat3... hehe..

its been a long time i din update my blog le.. haha.. my fren all aso no update le.. im jz like totally living in my own world.. well i have quit my studies.. lately im bz working and attending training.. well many things happen lately.. i will nt be able to write all out.. will write few of its summary la.. haha!!!


well now im clinique consultant i already work for them for one month plus.. im asking for a transferring bck to ktn.. cz im planning to go bck ktn and stay wif my hubby.. i learn to control my self i went bck for few time in long term.. do happen unhappy things bt i manage to control my emotion so i think if i move bck it would nt be a prob... plus my baby need me now.. so i must be by her side..

i went for interview at clinique hq and they dun seems to allowed me to go bck.. they wan me to stay at kl as a part timer.. bt really cant.. i need to go back ktn cz kl expenses is too high i cant afford it.. im currently working at few counter.. so always run here and there..

well these days many unhappy things happen i gt rob.. everything gone.. and now i no fon use aso.. aiz.. in a sudden soo many things happen aiyaya!! i aso duno wad to say..

all i can say hope in fututre things will be better la.

now im attending a 5 days training hope after tis train i can conquer all the products..^^

baby min
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suff3r...!!!

last thursday i did the most stupid thing ever.. bt its nt wad i wan.. i guess im jz too emotional.. i saw my husband profile picture.. he put he and a ex gf he love alot and change his status to 'in a relationship' my tears keep on drip and my heart was so pain.. i call him and beg him to accept me and nt leave me.. bt he say everything is over le.. its too late.. he shut my call i was so emotional and sad.. i does nt noe wat to do?? i jz cant think anything.. my mind was totally blur.. i was over depress..i did smtg childish.. lucky my housemates manage to notice my wrist its bleeding.. if nt i wont noe wad happen.. i guess god still want me here..well i still cant let it go.. bt im trying my best to c thing the other way.. i really hope miracle will happen one day..

h@ppy 0r SaD??

today is the 2nd day i didnt talk to my husband.. he is my ex husband or husband?? i aso duno.. haiz... i seriously love him alot now.. i try so hard to let go him bt i still cant.. i try to love another person i fail.. i try to stop thinking of him aso fail.. i duno wad else i can do to let him go.. i now understand y he feel tat im annoying.. i guess i to stick to him, i keep on wry him and find him.. i love him too much and he dun even love me.. tat is y he feel im annoyed.. i wonder whn only he will accept me bck?? izit possible?? i really duno.. everyday i at there waiting him.. my fren all scold me say im a fool keep on wait him.. eventhough i already knew its impossible bt i still want him.. am i stupid or wad?? im jz lying my self i guess.. hmmm.. hopefully miracle will happen la..

bck to my life at kl.. now a days im having exam and presentation and need rush assignment..i have done my HE assignment. now left IA and english.. next week thursday is my presentation. gt bit excited bt aso gt bit wry cz its my first time.. duno hw will it goes.. presentation sure mean formal.. so i have to wear formal and high heels for the whole day next thursday!! from 8.00am till 5.30pm.. die die die!! my leg sure pain like shit.. haiz.. T.T

today is wednesday mean is gym day.. haha!! today is my elbow bridge test.. b4 test my coach gv us sum briefing about the next test tat is sit up and push up test.. push up was the hardest thing for me.. i think i will surely fail the test.. we need to get 50 times to pass.. sure die!! i only manage 10 times.. so big diff.. for sit up aso 50 times.. lucky i can do around 20.. so need to practice now so i can pass my cocu course.. haha!! today elbow bridge test i manage to stand for 1 minutes and 15 second!! i gt 5 marks.. bt only on more second i can get 6 marks!! so angry!! i didnt stand a little longer.. arggghh!!one more thing today i brw my coursemate umbrella cz it was raining like cats and dog.. i put the umbrella on top of my locker and after gym come out umbrella lost!! omg!! umbrella le.. summore is old old wan!! aso gt ppl wan steal.. really no eye c lo.. haiz.. so i have to replace one to nav tmr..

today i at gym class knew a group of student from johor.. they r very friendly i knew 5 of them.. nika,jin he,kelvin,pei hsia and sherlyn.. there are 1 special thing bout them is the boys cook for the girls.. haha!!! now a days d guy really diff d.. haha!!! they were so nice that they invited me to join them for dinner.. bt i din went today.. hopefully i can join them next time..^^

i really thankx god that in moment that i really needs fren he send them to me..
i guess god really love me and wants me to appreciatte my self more and nt wasting my time dripping tears bcz of my husbad.. i will appreciate my friendship and nvr let them down.. i guess my fren willl be the best medicine to stop thinking of him.. hopefully i can get over tis two weeks not finding him.. i hope after tis two weeks he will nt be angry at me already and treating me same like last time.. seriously i really miss him.. i miss his smile and his hugs sooo much..T.T

str3ss3s is h3re to v1sit m3 ag@in^^

this is the fourth week of my 1st semester, next week is the fifth week. this mean i have to pass up my HE(hubungan etnik) coursework and my ME (microeconomic) is gonna have a exam next week. the problem is HE i haven settle my coursework!! the worst first week until noe i dun even understand even a bit about my ME subject!! now i have to chase all subject cz nt even one subject i understand.. luckily IA(introduction of accounting) i start to understand a bit le!! haha.. cant believe rite?? form 5 im economic and account student bt my weakness is this two subject^^ hopefully i can manage to catch back everything after putting effort in it.. i would nt wan to retake the whole semester again!! wish me all the best^^

yesterday went for gym. yesterday was a hectic day. went around with filthy wet clothes because its raining like cats and dogs summore no umbrella im so genius rite?? haha!! the rain start whn my gym almost ended!! i have to go to citc and they have no shade until citc! so it mean i have to go under the rain. went for lunch with kenny around 1 smtg. then went to skol at 2pm for gym. whn reach gym the first thing we do is run around the swimming pool 3 rounds!! no walking!! if walk have to round another round T.T. it was so hot!! i wonder y it dun start rain earlier?? haha!! den after running we gt stretching session. after tat were allowed to play wif the equipment. den a short briefing about our log book report. around 4pm i have to rush to citc to do my HE coursework wif my group memeber bt the rain is to heavy i only can reach canteen 2 to wait the rain to stop. while walking around at canteen 2 a guy pass by me。i look at him cz he is very familiar. guess wad? he is a malaysia artist. haha!! few of local artist came to our college to play football. so whn to take sum photograph with them and take their autograph. feel so like a sakai!! haha.. well had fun.. haha!!



ken from i want to be a model

james wong


group photo


steven if im nt wrong


alan wu


er him i dun really noe his name
bt heard my fren say he is
lee ming shun lil bro^^

after being sakai rush to citc its still raining bt no choice cz need to fnh my coursework. reach there around 4.30 plus den do my coursework until 5.15 den went for lecture replacement until 7.30pm tis is the first time i stay at skol until so late. haha!! me so rajin o?? lolz.. den bck home bath den go dinner with housemates.whn dinner all of my housemates go to order food and den the drinks came so i pay for it. the most funny part is whn we left they din noe i paid yeu shin at there wondering we pay the drinks already ant. and the stall guy ignore him cz ive pay. the most funny all of them tot is chris the one who pay cz he always treat us. all of them were wondering who pay haha!! after dinner came bck on9 trying to surf the web to get summore info for my He coursework bt stupid line make the website down!! arghh!! kek dao!! so in the end ended up play fb den around 3pm eat pills den sleep^^ tats all bout yesterday.

btw today is kenny my housemate bufdae!!

happy bufdae to you kenny wan! hope u have a happy bufdae and wish u all the best in the future^^


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